Lately I've been a teeny bit obsessed with finding before and after photos of PBMs online. I stumbled across this website, and it's got a large variety of before/after shots. I'm mainly posting it so I can remember where to find it, because I'm positive I'll want to study it again at some point in the near future!
I've never been terribly vain, but I do worry that my new boobies won't look normal. I'm more concerned with what they'll look like in clothes. As I like to tell people, it's not like I'm ever going to be a topless dancer, so some scarring won't be the end of the world lol! And I'm not going to pursue nipple reconstruction, so they're already going to look weird naked I suppose. That's always an option in the future but for now I'm not too concerned about nipples.
I guess I don't really have a huge attachment to my "girls", but it still seems surreal to be without them, and have them replaced with imposters. I've read about people going through a mourning period while coming to terms with the surgery they're about to have. I guess that's where I'm at emotionally. I don't feel like I'm mourning, necessarily, but definitely mentally preparing. I told my mom, cancer patients do have one advantage over me here. At least they don't have the emotional tug of war about whether to do the surgery. For them, its a necessity. For me, its not, and it comes with quite a bit of second guessing and opinions from everyone around me. I hope that comment about cancer patients having an advantage isn't offensive, because its not meant to be. I know they have it a lot harder than me. That's why I'm doing this afterall, to avoid becoming a cancer patient. I don't EVER want to have to wear a pink shirt at a Susan G. Komen walk. One survivor (my mom) in the family is enough.
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